really inspired by this quote:
"Any transition serious enough to alter your definition of self will require not just small adjustments in your way of living and thinking but a full on metamorphasis." ~Martha Beck (O Magazine)
And incorporating this into my everyday. Change isn't easy. Things do not change, we change. Only I can change my life, no one can do it for me. We do not change as we get older, we just become more clearly ourselves.
:) tackle change with a smile on your face...
As I refect on the changes I've made and am making in my life, this really hits home. 4 months into this journey and I've learned alot of things. Not only about myself, but my life, my goals, my family, my future, and things that I can control. And the things that I cannot control...well, I pray about them. Because I don't have the answers. Or the timing. Or the energy to plan how things "might" or "could" or "should" work out.
So thats how I'm feeling. The things that I'm doing right now are so positive. I've finally got good work/life/balance. And for the first time in so many years. Its funny how you think things are OK when you know they really suck and you want to change them. But that was my old mindset. Back when I thought I could and should control things. Now, I just live.
And I live healthy. I live hopeful. I love Parker. I love life. I love that I am changing me. And for the first time in forever making time for ME. Has it been easy? Hell-to-the-NO. But by surrounding myself in a positive environment, with positive mentors and role models thats how I'm living. To do better. To want more. To push myself. To perservere.
Update on my 1/2 training:
I officially started my training schedule this week. I ran 5.11 miles today. Pretty sure I should have given my legs a bit more of a pep talk. Specifically my calves. They are burning. On fi-ah. And you know the best part? I went into my run knowing I could do it. And I did. By setting a goal. A realistic goal. And no matter whether I met it or not, I tried for that goal. And I met that goal. I finished in under 60 minutes. And next week, I will run 6 miles. And I will do it.
There are some days that I feel like walls are crashing down. Both in good ways and not so good ways. But its my choice on how I deal with the crashing :)